ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to be a stressed adult male protagonist splashing water on his face in the bathroom
the curse of adhd:
- i will remember with absolute clarity, when the thought strikes me that i have a text to send someone, that this is the fourth time in three days i've attempted to send this specific text
- i will forget, in the time it takes me to pick up my phone, that i picked it up intending to send a text
this is something that I think a lot of people don't understand abt adhd. and like. this shit can get scary, especially if it happens often. I hate that I can't remember what I'm doing for the entire time it takes me to do it. I hate having to pause in the middle of conversations to desperately attempt to re-trace my train of thought because I don't remember what we're talking about. like. if you don't have adhd. just try to imagine what it's like to be unable to carry out a full conversation. try to imagine your memory resetting at random intervals. what are you doing right now? do you know? because often times, I fucking Forget. in the middle of doing things. and then I'm just standing there like an idiot desperately trying to wave away the thick fog that exists in my brain 24/7. and sometimes that shit just doesn't work. and I forget for good. it's terrifying. to me, at least.
Blood peach, apricot and nectarine trees are starting to blossom.
This year I'm adding two new stone fruit trees: a flat peach and a flat nectarine.
I have this small, potted columnar apricot tree that's not quite columnar anymore and I'm thinking of trying my hand at grafting it with every type of stone fruit I have. Will have to wait until next spring for that, but I'm looking forward to it.
actually i think the worst thing about the human body (besides the spine obviously) is that deepthroating is sooo hot but sooo hard to do. like i brushed my teeth too fast and threw up but im still spending far too much of my life thinking about choking on it. so what's up with that god
swan knight for magical knights zine! blessed by cygnus and themed after lohengrin (but only for the swan knight motif and none of the story)
dang, an actual useful and real "life hack" instead of those insane videos of people doing arts and crafts with a background of copyright free music